If you ever see this, I know your immediate reaction will be "SHE'S SO FUCKING CREEPY." but whatever. I'm just in love with you, and there's nothing i, or you, can do about it. I'm trying to ignore you & I am. But today I watched my uncle die and I thought about you and how if anything happened to you, I'd be so hurt.

Hurt because you never knew how much I fucking loved you. And how much I really cared about you, and how much I still do. I think about you every single day. I write you letters almost every day. It's pathetic, I know. But what else is there for me to do? I'd feel hurt because you'd be with someone else when it happened, and not me. I hate knowing that some other girl is kissing and touching you and that YOU are touching and kissing her back. And that you are in love with her? IN LOVE WITH HER? what the hell? You just started talking to this girl a month ago. I don't understand why I even fell in love with you. I don't know what to do. I love you. and I'm trying to stop.